somebody's miracle

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-15T07:56:00

2005-11-15T00:12:23Z

Dear Jamie I've got a letter I would like to send
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the end.
Should I trust this dialect?
To convey the right effect?

Dear Jamie I've got some things I'd like to set in pen
I would have used a pencil but that's just not permanent.
Should I trust my printer's ink?
To express the things I think?

Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say

Dear Jamie this envelope have the resent my heart
I'll seal it, send it off and wish it luck with its depart.
This stamp will be every action and carry my affection
Across the air and land easy
Should I trust the poster's due?
To deliver my heart to you?

Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say
Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say

Give it up I can
Flower and a hand
I hope this helps you see
Signed Sincerely me.

(:

it's been great, really. the whole 3 years at cherriesberries and i've tried many many times to move away from it but this time, it's for real. the memories that's stored in this livejournal is becoming too overwhelming and i dont think i can take it anymore.

i started this when i was attached to him but of course he doesnt know the many things i've never told him and never will be able to tell him but have kept a secret here (: made tons of lj friends who've been great and have taught me the true meaning of friendship. that's why i'm so reluctant to move but i have to, period. thanks for the many comments you've left me to comfort, to congratulate or just to say you miss me (LIKE JOSH! MY KNIGHT!). and i'm gonna end this livejournal to move away from who i am to who i've becomed.

dont worry, dearies (: i'll be back to read your posts through cherriesberries regularly and feel free to find my new blog through the various means you guys have! :D it's not coz of any of you, really. if i had a choice, i wont move but i need to discover a different me.take care of yourselves, alright? and know that no matter what, you remain in my heart forever.

this feels like moving home.

love,
Shikin.

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-13T01:05:00

2005-11-12T17:08:21Z

((:

dear love, you crossed my mind today (:

2005-11-12T05:08:40Z

within the company of the past few days, i've realised that my close friends are beginning to be infected with love and all the troubles that comes with it. it's really amazing seeing how much love means to teenagers like me. i can't pretend like it doesnt bother me that that issue seems to be the only thing that's in their minds now apart from council and schoolwork (coz these two things are hardly off our minds (((:)

i dont recall being this crazy about love when i was in primary school so why when i'm in junior college, it seems like a big thing to be loved and in love? being mature means knowing what's important and what's not. being the idealist that i used to be, love definitely ranks high on the importance scale but i realised that i've slowly become a cynic when it comes to matters of the heart. i seem to care more about which jobs i wanna take 10 years down the road and not whether i would have a steady boyfriend by then.

i guess love cant change the fact that i know that with relationships, mess comes along. fights and arguments which seriously i see no point in having. they just tire me and make me cry so what's the point? because i love him? well, i can live without loving him if it means no mess. but then slowly loneliness creeps in.

confused, yes i am. because it would be lovely to have a boyfriend but minus the fights and stuff. or maybe now's just not the right time (: i've got my whole life ahead of me; a levels, s papers, nus, jobs and more memories with jasmine, tiq, alvin, dory, charis, enqing, charlene, david and george (and jiahao and john although yest was the 1st time they were out with us. rofl) and i'm happy how it looks like right now (((:

dinner at ritz was funfunfunfunfun! except the main course. ROFL. but i love their toilets and taking pictures of us! you can refer to jasmine's blog to get the pictures and further details on the night out for us! (((:

and yesterday's laupasat+clarke quay outing was lovelieh. really looking forward to more of those late night outs for us! it's so exciting feeling so grown up :D and when we turn 18, hmmhmm ;) and all that shopping with jasmine and coffee with charlene are love! and cheese balls at taka were delicious! got myself a novel to mark a year of independence (((: crazy times like these make life worth living! and
christmas is comingg, darlings! that means more presents, more fun, more memories, more love and more crazy times like yesterdayy.

council chalet : 14 Nov - 16 Nov
math makeup : 14 Nov
redshirts training : 14 Nov
deadline for progbooklet : 18 Nov
dates out with bestie (tentative) : today and 21st Nov
packing of goodie bags for sdd : 26 Nov

yepp yepp november's filled up with fun for yours truly!

it's a complicated web that you weaved inside my head

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-11T08:06:00

2005-11-11T00:09:52Z

look at what Jas made me! (((:

i'm blessed!

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-10T13:55:00

2005-11-10T06:06:10Z

Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking

oralpresentation went smoothly (: better than expected but i kinda got really nervous in the beginning.
ROFL. but all in all, WOOHOO! no more nonsense projectwork which sucks.
seriously, i doubt i enjoyed any part of it but ohwells. glad that's over (:

spent yesterday with yanto (((: i've not been out with him since forever and yesterday was just well overdued (x am ultraglad he called me up yesterdayy!
we trotted off to esplanade, talked talked took retarded pictures talked talked ate icecream talked talked. ROFL. bah, you are much missed, dude (x
then, we went to orchard to get stuff (((: met SAIFUL =P and now I know why HE was busy yesterday :D anyways, got myself a lovelieh punk notebook for 2006 and yanto got his slice of heaven xD
had dinner and went home happy!

now, i've got to rummage through my wardrobe for what to wear to Ritz for dinner tonight!
so fun so fun so fun!

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-07T19:08:00

2005-11-07T11:17:35Z

dikeheningan malam
termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yg di sayang
bagai kau didepan mata
ku capai tapi tak kenal
sukarnya memendam rasa
ingin ku luahkan kata

bila rindu,terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu sentuhanmu, ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

jauh angan ku lena,ku rasa kita bersama,kau bawa aku ke sana
ke alam kisah yg lama,kenangan di dlm jiwa
bila tersedar semula,disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa,ingin ku luahkan semua ooooouuu

bila rindu,terkenangmu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu sentuhanmu, ku terasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

sesunguhnya kita mestilah
wujudkan sefahaman dan hormatmu
hormati,ikhlas,kasih,
makin tak ada,bertemu semula

awan yg mencas semesta
menyampaikan pesan kesunyian kanda sendiri
kesepian yg menyelubungi hari hari ku
disajikan doa2 ku kerana rindu
yg menanti kau dtg dan pergi seperti mimpi2 ku,fantasiku,
bukan dongeng lagi yang sayup kedengaran
disisi cuping,disetiap corong,lorong,yg lohong
benar!
ku tak bohong,bila hati menyanyi..

bila rindu,terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
ooohhohhoo
aku merindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwa selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi batas

oh bila rindu,terkenang mu sayang.,ku terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
(ku rindukan sentuhanmu)inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi batas diri ini

(:

hari raya #2 and #3

2005-11-06T02:45:03Z

one more picture entry (i hope) i'm just being lazy and dont want to update-ish!

and presenting my baby models!

i've got so many things to do :/
oralp's on thursday meaning GPF comes in on friday -big sigh*
i don't like stupidannoyingirritatingbleaurgh projectwork!

progbooklet for seniordinneranddance is due soon so i should get started!
Jas, the walk in music, how? i've got some songs in mind ((:
wanna come back on monday/tuesday/wednesday to run through?

CCA review of the studentscouncil 2005 is also due soon.
and welfare programming is due 11 Nov.
the best thing? i'm working with Jasmine so i can cover all three things soon (((:

plus i need to get my ass down to working for year2!
math make-up lecture's on the 14 Nov.
holiday? what holiday? :(

hari raya day #1

2005-11-04T03:16:03Z

so that's me in the car off to my maternal grandma's place (((: and click below for more pictures!

enjoy!

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-02T09:36:00

2005-11-02T02:51:00Z

Since tomorrow's hari raya aidilfitri and today's the last day of Ramadhan,
i decided to give my thanks (:

I thank God for giving me life and allowing me to live for 17 years and counting, discovering small little gifts He has left behind for me on this earth (: allowing me to stumble along the way and hurt to understand that life isnt a bed of roses but bringing me up to my highest right after that. Thank you God for teaching me that when one door closes, another one opens (: and since then, i've stuck by this motto, having faith that everything happens for a reason.

I thank God for loving me in his special way and taking care of me. Thank you for forgiving me when i've done wrong and all those lessons He has taught me along the way. Mostly, i thank him for the 16th year on this earth as i realised that year was the one i learnt so much about me, the people around me and a lot more (:

I thank God for the following people :-

my younger sister-Nurul (or more affectionately called Nul): for being my strength (: she's been there for everything that has happened to me and continued loving me. she's seen me at my best and worst and no matter what, she never took her love away ((: i thank her for all those late night talks which usually ends up with me crying but yeah, i'm emotional so don't blame me, yar? i thank her for showing me that whatever i do, i've got to think about what i'm doing first because it's gonna affect her (: thank you God.

my parents: for everything really. i know i've been rude and insolent sometimes whenever i'm not feeling good but hey! teenagers are like that (: for the love they have showered on me and the warm home they have created for me to come back to. for all those career and higher education talks and arguments and for wanting what's best for me (: for the good night kisses and for guiding me along the way. for understanding me (well, most of the time) and for telling me that you're proud of me. thank you God.

my best friend in the whole entire world-Nur'Anastassia!: for being the friend everyone wants =P for all the hugs and tears. for going through the tough and rough times with me and loving me all the same. for looking out for me, making sure i dont get hurt. for all the candy hunting trips and for sharing with me her special world ((: for all those calls, especially the 2am one :D for putting up with me when i'm whining and for reminding me that no matter how unkind the world is, i'll always have her (: for teaching me endless lessons about life. Thank you God for the lovely 9-going-on-to-10 years i've shared with this girl!

my best guyfriend-Saiful: for all those MSN conversations and sms-es (: for the support and motivation he has given me and all the times he's teased me =P and i'll always remember the first time we met, how innocent and blur he looked. lol. for sharing the past few months of his life with me and for teaching me to always persevere and never give up (: for rekindling my love for my grandmama coz i'm in awe of how close he is to his grandpapa! Thank you God for letting me know that there is someone out there who is just like me! (: and that boys don't suck. lol.

my gurlies-Jasmine, Atiqah, Charlene: for showing me the true meaning of friendship (: and how right it is when they told me that when you join council, you'll make friends you'll be inviting to your wedding (x for showering me with love and attention. for listening to me. for teaching me so many lessons that i cant start to count (:

I thank God for Tiq for showing me independence redefined. for allowing me to see that i can be a great sister, friend, student and leader if i try (: for encouraging me to join the council. for being the one person i ran to when i wanted to cry so bad and for all those times we went shopping and starbucks-ing with Ain and knowing that if there was one person i can rely on, it'll be you (: Thank you God!

I thank God for Jasmine for being her (: although we are of different religions, she has reminded me over and over again to love you, God. for showing me that true love does exist and for all those hugs and letters we've exchanged. for all the pinkness in the world! for being patient with me (: for being thoughtful and all the fun we have had together! and for telling me to enjoy life and the world! Thank you God!

I thank God for Charlene for always being there for me no matter what (: for being the sunshine in my life and for loving me (((: for cheering me up and for understanding me. for all the encouragement she has given me with regards to chemistry. for all those girl talks in the welfare room on thursdays and for always knowing how to lighten my burden. Thank you God!

my loveliehs-Celine and Jia Wei: oh wow. for being the two most greatest friends ever! for cheering me up whenever i'm down and for allowing me to be who i am around them (: for never letting me down and for motivating me. for all the support they have given me along the way! for understanding me and covering up for me. for being my secret holders and for all those times we munched on snacks during lectures and tutorials (x Thank you God!

my council: for giving me something that mattered to me (: for teaching me to be both a great leader and a great follower. for the opportunity to widen my social circle and learn to listen. for letting me enjoy the Victoria Experience in a different way. for all those redshirt times and the smiles on the Victorians' faces when we've done great (: Thank you God!

my greatestfriends-Simaa and Adri: for moulding me to be who i am today (: for never forgetting me although we're in different schools and we're all so busy (okay i am always too busy). for the fun and laughter we shared in the 16th year. SIMAA AKU RINDU KAU lah. for putting our friendship above anything else and for forgiving my mistakes. Thank you God!

my 'sisters'-Meghna, Madhuri, Farhana, Yasmin and Sabirah: for being the greatest 'sisters' ever! for making my everyday in Victoria seem much more sunny and for keeping me updated on the latest gossip ;) for setting the standard for me, for reminding me to be nice to next year's batch of victorians the way you guys were to me ((: for loving me no matter how retarded i am and no matter how much i suck at chem. for being my support throughout the whole year! Thank you God!

Yasmin and Sab, for being great younger 'sisters' who make me feel so comfortable ((: for cherishing every moment we have together. for being the two most beautiful butterflies in my life and for leaving me the most important lesson of having fun! Thank you God!

the Victorians: yesh, everyone of you (: for making VJC what it is now. for showing the Victorian spirit every day of the year. for wearing that badge with pride. for the many hellos and waves you've sent me along the corridor which made my day, no matter who you are. for asking 'are you okay?' when i have a frown. for supporting the council and for being you! Thank you God.

my sweetheart-nsq: for being my reminder of life each and every day. for showing me there is more to life than what i see on the surface (: for all those random emails you've left me and making me feel important in your life. for giving me the chance to be with you as you go through your rough times. for keeping the love for Cedar embedded in me. for the inner strength that you have that awes me! for being the pretty girl that you are, both on the outside as well as in the inside ((: Thank you God for this girl!

my lj-rgs-sixers friends-roby, azu, azi and diana: for being the fun people that you guys are! ((: for all that sisterly love you guys have within the sixers. for all those comments you guys have left along the way on my livejournal and for instilling some sense of confidence in me (: Thank you God!

my long time lj friends-ceetee, saliha, nhr, mally, josh, qis, iqah, raf, azlyn (so many la!): for the strength and support you guys have given me (((: for the love you have showered me and for being the warm arms i run to for virtual hugs. for loving me for who i am and for putting up with my nonsensical rambles on my livejournal posts. for the friendships we have forged that will last for a long long time even if we go on till forever not meeting each other. for the fun in knowing that some day i might be walking past you in public and be too shy to say hi. for being a bunch of great friends i'll never dream of leaving ((: Thank you God!

my long lost cousin in law-Natasha: for the hugs and kisses and fun girly fun! for always understanding me and for never saying i'm wrong (x for being the darling that you are and for being both family and friend :D for the pictures that makes me smile no matter how down i am. for basically, being you! Thank you God!

ME: for the love he has for me. for the patience he has when it comes to me and my feelings (: for always understanding and always saying i'm pretty :D for always being him around me and for giving me the warm sense of belonging. for continuing to be the great guy friend he is even after what has happened between us (: for the secret friendship we have! Thank you God.

my tpjc friends-yanto, ain, shafiq...: for being great buddies! (((: for always making me feel welcome in your college. for being so proud of me, yanto. for listening to me whine and all, shafiq. for being a great gurlfriend, ain ((: thank you God!

for everyone else in my life: well, for playing a part in making me who i am today ((: Thank you God.

long entry (: take care, y'all!
and slmat hari raya aidilfitri in advanced! oh and if i dont reply to your smses tmr, sorry! (x the sms limit is dying (x -lovelove*

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-01T15:48:00

2005-11-01T07:52:57Z

I was looking through my past entries on livejournal and i found this..

I'm so inspired to be in Vj's student council IF I get there =)Hahaha..sheesh..so perasan

WOW. and that was when i was Sec 3 (((:
look where i am today.
talk about bigdreams becoming reality ((:

cherriesberries @ 2005-11-01T10:05:00

2005-11-01T02:28:39Z

Just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been to you
Oh just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I ain’t got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess that’s not enough
For you to notice me

Craig David makes me feel sexy (:
I'm hooked on Death Cab For Cutie, dont ask me why! It's slowly pushing Dashboard Confessional off the edge and replacing it as my number one favourite band (x
and yesh, i think i've gotten over my Matchbook Romance fetish i had since last year. lol.

Jasmine's email made me feel like running to her and hugging her.
I thank God for the gurlies I've found in college especially Celine, Jia Wei (i cant believe we never talked in Cedar!), Jas and Tiq. I'll miss these gurlies when i graduate next year and all the lovely memories Victoria has given me ((: and of course, Meghna and Madhuri, i'll miss doubly when they leave this year :(

I can't believe I've got PW OP dry run tmr from 2pm-5pm -grumbles*
NONSENSE.
Mugging is moving at a progressive speed this week. I've started on math and i'm determined to get at least a B for next year's Common Test.
Mohan's gonna kill me for not touching chemistry this week (x but what he doesnt know wont kill him. lol.
HAPPY DEEPAVALI, chemistrytutor :D and everyone else who celebrates it ((:

This week has been a week of discovery for me ((:

You don’t know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesn’t even know

I love this song ((((:
[EDITED: updated the wishlist!]

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-30T12:04:00

2005-10-30T04:08:19Z

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

i'm hooked.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-29T18:17:00

2005-10-29T10:34:10Z

RAYA OUTING FOR VICTORIANS ((:
17-18th Nov!
more details will come so keep checking my livejournal :D

yayyayyayayay! this is gonna be funn (:
and we get to do dikir for ChineseNewYear again :D :D :D
i miss working with the melayu gang (x espesh Sum, Didi, Hanisah-s (since we did GPA together!)
we havent done anything together since the bbq/picnic which was like 2367289467384 years ago (x

lovelove for the minorities in school!

springcleaning seems to be the only household chore i enjoy!
cleared up the horrible mess in my room just now, all the nonsense notes i was mugging for promos :D
and i did up a lovely postcard area above my noticeboard (((:
so the postcards my friends have sent me from overseas and those that i bought are all there.
makes me feel so excited!

and i pasted the council song on my worktable along with this philosophical thing about change (x
according to Dad, he won't let me take them off till i finish Uni since the glue will spoil the table top. so yayy i'll be in constant reminder of my darlings in the 22ndstudentscouncil.

oh! we're off to France or USA this year (x
secretly, im hoping we'll be off to France for 2 main reasons

1) KAK SYA! :D
2) we went to newyork-canada last year and san francisco the year before (so you get what i mean)

okayy shall prance off and do my workplan for Nov-Dec 2005-2006
Adam Khoo, here i come!

.

2005-10-28T01:39:01Z

Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
Well I bet if you all had it all figured out
Then you'd never get out of bed

No doubt
All the thing's that I've read what he wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping
To be
Keep on keeping it real
Cause it keeps getting easier indeed

He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak
But keep your tongue up in your cheek
And if you stumble on to something better
You better remember that it's humble that you seek

You got all the skill you need,
Individuality
You got something
Call it gumption
Call it anything you want

Because when you play the fool now
You're only fooling everyone else
You're learning to love yourself

Yes you are

There's no price to pay
When you give and what you take,
That's why it's easy to thank you
You...

Let's say take a break from the day
And get back to the old garage
Because life's too short anyway
But at least it's better then average
As long as you got me
And I got you
You know we'll got a lot to go around
I'll be your friend
Your other brother
Another love to come and comfort you
And I'll keep reminding
If it's the only thing I ever do
I will always love
I will always love you
Yes you
I will always, always, always, always love
I will always, always love
I will always, always love, love

(:

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-26T15:27:00

2005-10-26T07:40:32Z

Nothing seems to be the way
That it used to
Everything seems shallow
God give me truth

Realisation #1: i'm becoming more chinese by the day. PERIOD. i think by the end of this year, i'll become a chinese muslim.

Realisation #2: results day is the most gloomy and depressing day on earth.

Realisation #3: I DO NOT LIKE ASHWIN IN THAT WAY. eeyyeer. george can be a horrible idiot when he wants to be and today, he has been officially crowned the idiot of the year since hello, if youknowwho hears that i like another boy, i'm so never getting a chance with him!

Realisation #4: I've got to work my ass off during Nov-Dec to make my sad grades into something that will shortlist me for Law. like seriously, starting today, i'm gonna mug like there's no tomorrow.

Realisation #5: I love my council so much. i realise that i feel so belonged to victoria because of the friends i've made as a councillor especially my exco (: IN YOUR FACE.

Realisation #6: someone told me today that i'm way too nice for my own good and that's why i'm always being taken for granted. he was like, "how many times have you done nice stuff for people, gone the extra mile for someone and how many times have people been nice and sweet to you? talk about karma" but later he sent me Jason Mraz's Song For A Friend so i love him for that. lol.

Realisation #7: i'm already late to go shoe shopping with mummy. bye!

Don't you run too fast my dear
Why don't you stop?
Just stop and listen to your tears
They're all you've got

random thought

2005-10-25T12:13:48Z

I feel most comfortable in my Victorian PE T-shirt.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-25T08:06:00

2005-10-25T00:27:26Z

Matchbox Twenty is the love (:

i cant live without you
tell me, what am i supposed to do about it?

tell me can i be your heartache?

NAIMA won (((: ohmygod. she is like so hot! -goes into a bimbo trance*
anyways, it's not unexpected since some one told me way ahead of time that she was gonna win.
modelling; every girl's dream job (x

went out with Tassia yesterday :D much love and fun as you usual!
haha the suntec outing was fun fun fun.
and i cant wait till raya when i'm rich so we can go out and buy anything we want! :D
and loads of candies and chocs.

A big thankyou to Celine and Jia Wei for the PRINTS notebook they got me
and to Danial and Dalila for another PRINTS notebook :D
so now i have two PRINTS notebook! sofunsofun.
i lovelove notebooks! (oh my, i'm so secretarial now)

(((((: you make me one happyhappy girl and the best thing? you dont even know!

For the past few days, every time i'm walking into school,
Jason Mraz's Plane plays on my shuffle. Coincidence?
I cant wait to go on vacation this year :D when is December gonna come?

And i've made a new friend yesterday (:
And SAIFUL! YOUR JELLY BEANS (x

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-23T18:35:00

2005-10-23T10:39:57Z

Added pictures to the layout (: scroll over to find out who you're seeing in the pictures
and how important they are to me :D
i love this layout! it's so me.
Achievements of the day : that and i'm done with OP

Now, i'm gonna secretly make my own skirt without my parents finding out
and finish studying chemistry.

seriously, i dont feel like going to school tmr
but Mr Chow happily booked us a slot for OP rehearsal
so yeahh.

i cant wait for my hair to grow.
G R O W.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-22T13:25:00

2005-10-22T05:39:47Z

SMU is tempting me like nobody's business.
Business Law, hmmhmm.
NUS law faculty is pushing me away with their conditions =( i need an A and 2 Bs alongside a B3 for GP and great CCA record. blah. plus there's that nonsense essay and interview. i'm so malas. k, if you're the head of the law faculty, i love LAW i just get nervous easily.

Darylinie is the best person to talk to during Uni Admission Talks ((:
He kept me awake 70% of the time coz the 30% of that, he was sleeping =P

Something Corporate is love.
And so are you ;)

Natasha, you adorable tj girl you! i love love love you. and Saiful, much thanks and love.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-21T08:46:00

2005-10-21T16:06:17Z

you need a friend
i'll be around
dont let this end
before i see you again

what can i say to convince you to change your mind bout me?

i'm gonna love you more than anyone.
i'm gonna hold you closer than before
and when i kiss your soul, your body'll be free
i'll be free for you anytime
i'm gonna love you more than anyone.

look into my eye what do you see?
not just the colour, look inside of me.
tell me all you need and i will try,
i will try.

thumpthumpthump.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-18T20:19:00

2005-10-18T12:31:25Z

i screwed my promos.
k, not screwed or flunked but mygod, i expected so much more!
cldnt help being angry at myself but when i was talking to Saiful, he really encouraged me alot and i knew from that moment on, i'm gonna leave all these negative feelings behind and start again (:
i can do this, i know i can and Saiful, YOU CAN TOO!

k, so I promoted lahhh but i wanted 2 S papers, can? (i sound like a spoilt brat. sorry. actually i was just happy to know that i promoted!)
16PF results came back and my personality is a bit crazy acc to the professionals.
plus it is proof that i should be in the Arts fac, i scored a full 10 for artistic abilities and a sad 1 for realistic thinking. (makes you think why i'm in the Science fac, right?) lol.
and there's this long list of what i should do when i grow up and i was so happy to see that teacher appeared 6473892463826542378456385 times alongside attorney, lawyer and paralegal. yayyyness. oh and i can be a counsellor! but look down below..

the funniest line in my whole personality report?
Ms Ahmad should seek professional counselling as she seems to be restless. However, with her personality characteristics, we may not suggest immediate gratification. (haha i should counself myself, hor? save much more money) lol.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-16T14:52:00

2005-10-16T07:32:49Z

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

(haha if i had a boyfriend!)

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

-sighs*

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

You can take care of all members in the group very well. You make sure that everybody gets his or her plates during mealtime. You act like a caring mother all the time.

(havent i heard this one?! darn. i'm too motherly)

You love fair relationship with your boyfriends. You like a simple wedding. It can merely be cohabitation without wedding, or you live separately with your husband. Despite all these, you will still have a good time together until you become a grandmother or a grandfather. Then, you are still good friends who always living the rest of your life together.

Your Hidden Talent
Here is the analysis:

The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

(yayyy model! America's Next Top model, here i come. NOT)

You are very creative. Your wedding should be unique and people will remark about it for some time afterwards.

(lol. i cant wait.)

i just realised that even if i retained, it's not that bad.
lol. coz i love VJC so much, it doesnt matter.

TOUCHWOOD. (the negative thoughts are clouding my head. SHOOT)

beware! many and big pictures!

2005-10-16T04:36:14Z

ballonman!(:

charlene; our lovely breezer on blades with shades!

mohan&jiahao&david&sean&francis; as councillors we stand!

david; my rockbandking!

icecream(((:

jasmine&shikin; vjcgurlies for life!

lianghong&nigel's band; whygeorgia(:

lianghong&nigel's band; slide(:

shikin&waikin; us(:

vjc's massdances; whineywhiney!

vjc's massdances; tribal!

vjc's massdances; massdance i/c on the roof! :D

vjc's massdances; shikin caught!

mohan; darth maul (?)

shikin&ashwin; redshirt plus soccerplayernumber19(:

shikin&daryl(trackcapt,woot!); geogers unite!

shikin's shirt; i'm a punkrockprincess and i'm from the students' council.

shikin&jasmine; it's a chick thing!

shikin; a narcissitic picture is a musthave(:

grace&layqueen's butts; stairs up to the council room!

councilopenhouseteeshirts; a sense of belonging to something that actually matters to me(:

waikin&shikin; the kins.

alvin; hot president!

visitors; future victorians(:

visitors; future victorians2(:

vjc windmill; odac(:

tsd's finest; yeek!

(:

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-15T23:07:00

2005-10-15T15:16:39Z

he doesnt love so why should i?
no point begging.
i'm a girl not a doll.
respect me.

chat with dalila was much called for (:
she's right and i agree with her.
so here we go.

saiful should just learn to sing and break into the industry or smth.
(:

openhouse at vjc was the best!
more updates on it soon. much too tired now.
photos will come along with those updates.
check out my friendster if youre too excited. lol.

oh and i realise many pple read my lj and get funny ideas about me.
stop reading too much into the lyrics of the songs i put up here.
they are just that; words.

you took what he gave me and made it yours.

cherriesberries @ 2005-10-12T19:20:00

2005-10-12T11:25:18Z

today is a horrible day.
started off horrible
ended off horrible

amin to the end of it (:

and the whole thing about dating David the coolest.
HOHO.