dear love, you crossed my mind today (:
within the company of the past few days, i've realised that my close friends are beginning to be infected with love and all the troubles that comes with it. it's really amazing seeing how much love means to teenagers like me. i can't pretend like it doesnt bother me that that issue seems to be the only thing that's in their minds now apart from council and schoolwork (coz these two things are hardly off our minds (((:)

i dont recall being this crazy about love when i was in primary school so why when i'm in junior college, it seems like a big thing to be loved and in love? being mature means knowing what's important and what's not. being the idealist that i used to be, love definitely ranks high on the importance scale but i realised that i've slowly become a cynic when it comes to matters of the heart. i seem to care more about which jobs i wanna take 10 years down the road and not whether i would have a steady boyfriend by then.

i guess love cant change the fact that i know that with relationships, mess comes along. fights and arguments which seriously i see no point in having. they just tire me and make me cry so what's the point? because i love him? well, i can live without loving him if it means no mess. but then slowly loneliness creeps in.

confused, yes i am. because it would be lovely to have a boyfriend but minus the fights and stuff. or maybe now's just not the right time (: i've got my whole life ahead of me; a levels, s papers, nus, jobs and more memories with jasmine, tiq, alvin, dory, charis, enqing, charlene, david and george (and jiahao and john although yest was the 1st time they were out with us. rofl) and i'm happy how it looks like right now (((:

dinner at ritz was funfunfunfunfun! except the main course. ROFL. but i love their toilets and taking pictures of us! you can refer to jasmine's blog to get the pictures and further details on the night out for us! (((:

and yesterday's laupasat+clarke quay outing was lovelieh. really looking forward to more of those late night outs for us! it's so exciting feeling so grown up :D and when we turn 18, hmmhmm ;) and all that shopping with jasmine and coffee with charlene are love! and cheese balls at taka were delicious! got myself a novel to mark a year of independence (((: crazy times like these make life worth living! and
christmas is comingg, darlings! that means more presents, more fun, more memories, more love and more crazy times like yesterdayy.

council chalet : 14 Nov - 16 Nov
math makeup : 14 Nov
redshirts training : 14 Nov
deadline for progbooklet : 18 Nov
dates out with bestie (tentative) : today and 21st Nov
packing of goodie bags for sdd : 26 Nov

yepp yepp november's filled up with fun for yours truly!

it's a complicated web that you weaved inside my head